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老照片
今天老妈整理以前的照片,顺便发了两张给我,20多年前的照片… …
那时的奶奶好年轻,爸爸好瘦,妈妈原来那么漂亮的啊,比我漂亮多了……
突然一时感慨,鼻子有点酸:
多好的一个家庭,究竟是毁在妈妈的手里,还是毁在我的手里了?想象不出当年老妈对于我出卖了她是种什么样的心情,可那时我才12岁啊;有时候也会想,现在是对那时行为的惩罚吗?曾经看到一句话这么说:无论你多么努力的要改变命运,可是在临死前的那刹,你才会终于明白原来这一切还是早已注定了的。小学6年级的我,改变了我自己的命运,人生观,爱情观,所有的一切。
照片里的妈妈笑的很好看,爸爸笑的很自然,奶奶也很上相,而我是那么的无忧无虑,被幸福包围着…
如今,幸福 的感觉离开我很久了…
回忆对我来说,还是件很讨厌的事情,以后还是少回忆些吧。
混乱……
回国的这段时间是有史以来最混乱的。
一直在挣扎,在做决定。焦虑,却不知道具体的原因,隐隐感觉这边不能放手,那边也不能放弃;
突然,看到了这样一句话:对于未来可能会孤独的焦虑,比起拉子身份,更加让我无所适从。
原来这种焦虑是对孤独的恐惧。恐惧似荆棘,绊住了我企图奋力寻求幸福的步伐。而这条路上,没有斩除荆绊的信心和努力,也就没有幸福…
我该怎么做,该怎么做呢……..
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2008-08-14 11:30:28
不管怎么样,还是要相信真爱,并且敢于在爱中奋不顾身.
想得越多越什么都不会明白,保护得越多,越什么都不会得到,受不到伤害也无从去得到幸福.
真爱不是碰到的,也不是找到的,而是从心动的那一刻起,用尽力气开凿到的.
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2008-09-12 终于又剪短了头发
30岁以后再走bette路线吧,
趁年轻,SHANE一下…
I look very Shane today!!!
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餐会上,在我看来是教授的玩笑,竟然被他当真了,
周六想和我一起去买Ring…..crazy,crazy…….
拒绝了他
同时,也拒绝了更加混乱…
Soul of The L Word
We may argue about The L Word, but on this we all agree: Jennifer Beals takes our breath away. The star opens up about shooting sex scenes, being a new mom, and giving lesbians what they want
By Anne Stockwell
Excerpted from The Advocate January 31, 2006
By virtue of her acting chops and star power, Jennifer Beals unshakably anchors the L Word ensemble as lipstick lesbian dynamo Bette Porter, who aspires to run the world and never break a sweat. Born in Chicago, her mother Irish and her father African-American, Beals was 19 years old when she ripped the neck out of a sweatshirt and aerobicized herself into film history with 1983’s Flashdance. Directed by Adrian Lyne and cowritten by Joe Eszterhas, this was just one of a crop of would-be imitators of Saturday Night Fever. With her model’s stature and wounded eyes, Beals turned it into something else again.
The “wounded eyes” thing shows up in every story ever written on Beals, and no wonder. Those liquid brown eyes are a gift of nature, and Beals—an agile intellect who majored in American literature at Yale—deploys them to stunning advantage. In The L Word, Beals has put The Eyes in the service of lesbian fans everywhere, using that smoldering gaze to create some of the most erotic woman-to-woman love scenes in memory. Even Chaiken can’t explain how Beals works her magic. “I’ve never met anybody else,” says L Word creator Ilene Chaiken simply, “who can do it like she can.”
Do people still assume that you have to be a lesbian to play one on TV?
No, not at all. At least they don’t say that to me. I heard a rumor that somebody—a studio executive in L.A. who saw some of the show—assumed I was bisexual. Which was a huge compliment to me, because oftentimes I will go Leisha or Kate or Ilene or Rose Troche most often and ask, “OK, is this the right thing to do? Is this not the right thing to do? Am I going to seem like a total chump if I do this?” And so I feel really proud, actually, that somebody would think that I was bisexual—I was pleased with myself. And I don’t care, frankly. But I think mostly people will ask the question to get a titillating lead for their article. My older brother is a journalist, so I know how the game works.
Some in the lesbian community have said, “Everyone’s too pretty, too rich”—all of that. But on this season there’s going to be a more explicit look at butch and femme roles.
Yeah, I think Ilene’s explored that so far. But, you know, it is TV. I don’t know any group of people in New York who look like the characters on Friends either. But I take their point. It excites me that if people don’t like something, they voice their opinion about it. Because this, by and large, is a group that’s never been represented. And instead of just saying, “Oh, we’re so thrilled to be represented and we’ll take whatever we can get,” there are very specific opinions of how people want to be represented.
Let’s talk about season 3. Your character, Bette, is at a crossroads. The job’s gone. Her father has died. Her relationship with Tina has to be rekindled. And then there’s a new life that requires more commitment than she’s ever given anybody.
Yes, it’s true. It’s the curveballs that come, one after the other. The second season was definitely the trials of Job in a way, and then this season has its own trials that aren’t as necessarily evident but are profound nonetheless.
In what direction does Bette most need to grow at this point?
[Sighs] I don’t know. It’s hard for me to presume to say how someone needs to grow. Then I’m standing back and judging her, which is a tricky thing to do as an actor. I think she needs a really good attorney at this point. [Anne laughs]
Having seen the first couple of episodes, I can only say that baby Angelica is a gorgeous, beautiful baby.
Oh, that kid is just—her name is Olivia, and she’s just such a delight. She makes me laugh so hard, and she’s been so patient with all of us. Oftentimes, working with children can be very hard. They don’t know where they are, they don’t know why they’re there, and they don’t enjoy it. But she clearly enjoys being around.
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Did Jennifer Beals out Kate Moennig as a Lesbian?
Jennifer Beals(以下简称为J)是否踢爆了Kate Moennig(简称K)是les?
So, did Jennifer Beals “out” Kate Moennig as a lesbian in a recent interview with The Advocate?
那么,J究竟有没有在THE ADVOCATE的采访中踢爆k是LES呢?
The Advocate January 31, 2006 issue asked Jennifer, “Do people still assume that you have to be a lesbian to play one on TV?”
2006年1约31日,Advocate的采访中,向J提问“有没有人仍旧猜测如果你在剧中是个les,那么你在现实生活中就必须也是呢?
Jennifer responded, “Not at all.
J回答,“决不是。
At least they don’t say that to me. I heard a rumor that
至少对我而言不是这样。我听到一些传言,
somebody—a studio executive in L.A. who saw some of the show
assumed I was bisexual. Which was a huge compliment to me,
我是个双性恋。这对我来说真是句恭维话。
because oftentimes I will go to Leisha or Kate or Ilene or
因为我经常去问leisha、kate、ilene或大多数时候是问rose troche
Rose Troche most often and ask, “OK, is this the right thing
“好吧,我是不是应该这样演?是不是应该这样做?
to do? Is this not the right thing to do? Am I going to seem
我会不会因此看起来像个傀儡?(就是说是不是戏会演得很生硬)
like a total chump if I do this?”
Hmm… Leisha Hailey is an out lesbian. IIene Chaiken is an out
嗯……leisha hailey是个出了柜的les.iiene chaiken也是个公开的les
lesbian. Rose Troche is an out lesbian. Can we conclude from
Rose Troche是个公开的les。那么我么是否可以从J的陈述中
Jennifer Beal’s statement that Kate Moennig is an out lesbian too?
得出结论:katheting moennig 也是一个公开的les呢?
Catching up w/Jennifer Beals…
Jennifer plays Ivy League educated lesbian Bette Porter on the series which is set to begin shooting its sixth and final season which will air in 2009.
“It’s bittersweet,” Jennifer said of the landmark show’s impending end. “But I think the most important thing is that we’ve been telling these stories of these women in Los Angeles. What I hope mis when the show is off the air, that someone will continue to tell stories from the lesbian community in one way or another.”
Jennifer, married to Ken Dixon and the mother of a 2-year-old daughter, has appeared in more than 50 movies including “Devil in a Blue Dress,” “The Bride,” “The Twilight of the Golds” and “The Anniversary Party.” But her only previous experience with series television was way back in 1992 when she co-starred with Lisa Hartman and Drew Barrymore on the CBS summer series “2000 Malibu Road.”
She didn’t seem to too pleased that I mentioned “Malibu” but it was good fun as I recall.
“It’s very, very different,” Jennifer said of working on the two series. “This is a completely different animal. Working at Showtime and working with (series creator) Ilene Chaiken, it’s been such a real pleasure. And I’ve also had a really great character to play – a very rich character to play.”
Jennifer had just completed a film with Kevin Kline called “Joueuse” before preparing for the final season of “L Word.” Still a student at Yale when she made the big studio film “Flashdance,” the actress has enjoyed some of her best roles in independent films in addition to “L Word.”
“It’s really about the role and it’s about the story,” she said. “I’ll go wherever the good story is.”